No idea why I feel like writing this, but here we go. This is a personal rant, by the way
I’m not very social but I can adapt on context. I personally much prefer being in small, intimate cirlces. I enjoy knowing every person including the stories that linger around them, as I also share stories about me like an open book.
I also observe when people don’t ‘vibe’ with me, and I won’t force myself being on such groups. Banter and the occasional light-hearted fun after classes was something I used to look forward after school.
Unfortunately, adulthood is not chill as high-school anymore. Other than minor things like personal hobbies not being as fun and adult things we make-do like feeding kids, chores and making beds, I do understand why people don’t message each other on the daily as they do often.
I see this in my neices and cousins; I know they have their lives and I see them share it on posts and stuff they upload on Instagram or TikTok. I got no issues with that-I’ll be as the auntie-friend that I originally was.
However, waste my fucking time with bullshit excuses like ‘working’ behind a poorly orchestrated scenario and now you’re getting me pissed the fuck off. I’m not perfect, I got flaws, including how I self-manage.
Despite that, I make the effort and time to apologise and notify people beforehand-a simple ‘can we do a raincheck‘ or ‘omg I’m on something right can you please give me a minute?’ doesn’t take muscles other than lifting your fucking fingers.
If you’re expecting to be late or facing traffic on the way to work you notify supreriors (team lead, management or HR) as form of courtesy. Why are you unable to do the same exact thing to your friends?
If you value the people and the effort do, where’s that same courtesy? Once you plan things, people prepare and that includes me; I prepare myself, I poise and try my best to be positive because I’m not emotionally well; I have problems with regulating my own emotions.
So yeah, if you are reading this (sometimes, I really hope you do); please, please don’t fucking waste my time. Don’t be friends with me if you are unable to make time or effort to say ‘sorry I just got work stuff going on right now’, ghosting on a friend who expected to hear from you.
If you so-love working, why don’t you marry the job and just stay there? Don’t talk to me and yap as if I don’t know shit because the way you execute your lies suck, Oscars would be embarrassed to have you on their Best Actress.
For anyone else, choose peace. Don’t waste your time with people who will disrespect your time and create false expectations, just because they can. Spend your time with people who make no expectations and those who will show up, just because.
Life is crazy, sometimes. You’re expecting to be on a positive trajectory then suddenly, you encounter bumps that will bend you under. The real people who loves you will be there and they will help you get back up and running
Real people will help you without any questions or expectations in return, they just help because that’s the human thing to do. Now, if they waste AND disrespect your time, it’s time to leave and go.
Wish them the best in the passions they want to make, never look back in emotional rage and look at your gorgeous self as you strive to find your footing in this Earth or maybe another planet somewhere.
That’s what you are-a star. You’re a star who appreciate the time and effort humans make in order to chat, talk or even listen. If you sound like me right now-you will find the real people, trust me.
Open your heart-let the real ones in and the fake ones out from your gills you cutie fishy-fishy 🐟
ps. Graphic from @aleksander2 and @palau19832 via Canva, thanks!